suicide is not chess but i am practicing in my mind - 04/22/25

its a long ride from point a to point b. in this hypothetical, i don't know where i am going, but i know that i am leaving. its a long ride and i don't know how much i should pack or if i should even pack at all but in this hypothetical i don't need to. it's a long ride and i don't know which notice i should send my boss, if it should be 2 weeks or a few days or maybe i should just go unnoticed. in this hypothetical i am already moving with every breath i take i stray closer to point b with no real direction. its a long ride from point a to point b and the sky doesn't talk but the clouds do and i'm laughing alone. in this hypothetical i am already gone and i have already started running and i have already packed my bag with nothing and i don't know where i am going but i know that i have to go. its a long ride from point a to point b but i know i won't stop moving or else i'd have to go home. it's a long ride from point a to point b and i'm thinking i should call my mom and let her know i’m on a trip but i wouldn't know what to say because i haven't even moved my feet yet. in this hypothetical i am running wildly with precision and dancing loosely as a ballerina and making my way from point a to point b.